Christmas Break and Vix Vapor Rub...

Hey guys, I know I haven't written all that much but the truth is that I really don't have much to tell. I started my Christmas Break yesterday and finished all my finals... I'm pretty sure I did well on them.
Anyway, you can guess the Vix Vapor Rub part... I'm sick... It sucks... A lot. I hate being sick, it;s also a sort of phobia of mine. After being sick for seven months straight I despise sickness with a dire passion.
Yeah, anyway not a lot to write about and not a lot to tell. Have a good Christmas, Hanukkah, Kwanzaa, uh, and any other Holiday!
-AuthorOfTomorrow

Saw this a couple minutes ago= lol worthy

Okay, so all of us who are teenager know we LOVE our sleep, we would actually marry it if we could. I know I would. The hard part is when our parents or guardians try and wake us up. This results in an angry and still tired teen.
Anyway I saw this on Yahoo! and I laughed all the way through. It's a mom's guide to wake up their teen.
Here's the link: http://shine.yahoo.com/event/momentsofmotherhood/user-post-how-to-awaken-a-teenager-2402224/

--AuthorOfTomorrow

Halloween

Okay, I haven't been updating lately because I'm... well me (lazy). Anyway Halloween is coming up and I know what I'm going to be!!! Of course being the quirky teen I am I'm not going as a vampire, pirate, or zombie! Please I am far too creative for that! I'm going as the GRAMMATICAL GURU! My own superhero I made up and put in one of these posts.
Basically I'm going to be a superhero who protects uh, who shows hmm, well I don't really know what GG does. Anyway I'm going to wear a shirt that says THE GRAMMATICAL GURU and have a cape that will say GG and my face will be painted whit with a whole bunch of words on it!! I'll look so amazing.
I almost want to ask my English teacher if I can get extra credit for dressing up as some sort of English based character!
That would be awesome!
What are you people going to be for Halloween?
--AuthorOfTomorrow

Urgness

So obviously I haven't been on here in a while, truth be told I'm a lazy kid. Anyway in the time from my last post to this one I've taken ahold of an amazing opportunity. I'm going to do this writing contest thing! It's really cool! There are three categories: Non-fiction, Fiction, and Poetry. You can enter one for Non-fiction and Fiction and three for Poetry. I'm going to enter all five. It's really cool too, you can get 100$ fro each first prize you win and a chance for a scholorship and a cahnce to be published in some readers digest thing. I'm not too sure what it is specificaly and I'm too lazy to go see what's on the paper.
Well that's one thing.
Second is the Math Building had an electrical fire during 7th block! No one got hurt so you can't call me cynical. But yo can call me so amazingly lucky I can go down in the history books! We were going to take a test and well the fire kind of put that out of focus soooo..... woot! The only bad thing was that the fire alarm went off when I was in the Counselors office... figures a fire happens when I start telling my life story...
I wasn't actually talking about my life but you get the point.
Anyway when we finally were able to go back into the building (the math building kids and teachers went into the cafeteria) my counselor gave me this really cool site to go look for colleges and stuff it's really cool. I'm actually going to go on it when I'm done with this post.
Yup so that's what happened this week.
The weekend however needs another section.
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On Saturday we went to my grandpa's to have a barbeque. It was pretty nice and the food was good.
Sunday morning, to be precise, 1:30 am Sunday morning I was being woken up by someone poking my head. At first I thought it was my brother and I was going to yell at him. Then I noticed that the person was to big to be Brett and as you could imagine I totally freaked out.
Okay so I wasn't exactly as herioc and brave as I'd thought I'd be... I hid under the covers and squeaked.... Yeah, yeah...
As it turned out I only stopped hiding under the covers as I heard someone laughing. Teryn laughing to be exact. So I called him a jerk face adn threw a very threatening pillow at him.
Yeah, ha ha...
So that's what happened so far...
-AuthorOfTomorrow

Enlightenment

Well, Recently I've had an enlightenment. I know I'm only 16 but I've had an amazing reality check. I know what I'm going to do for the rest of my life. I'm going to be a writer and an editor. There isn't going to be a back up plan because I'm going to do this and succeed at it.

I know what I have to do to acheive this goal and I'm going to do no matter how impossible it may seem.

I'm going to start with taking my PSAT. And joining the pep club to get more colleges to look at me.

I'm also going to take AP Chem, AP English 4, and AP History my senior year. AP Math is way out of the question. I'm not good at math and I defintely do not want to risk that.

Also in my senior year I'm going to take both the SAT and the ACT, the more tests I take the more opportunities I have to get into a good college.

So I'm also going to apply for an intern thing my senior year and do that.

Well all I know is that Life, ya hear me? I'm ready!

I mean even though a lot of messed up things have held me back and scarred my life I'm still going to do what I want. And I'm going to get into the best college with English and Creative Writing majors hopefully near where Kate wants to go to college so we can still get an appartment together if not dorms in the same college.

Anyway I have so much motivation for this that nothing could possibly deter me. My mom and dad have worked so hard for my brother and I and I'll be darned (I don't cuss, but I'm pretty sure you get it) if they don't get what they worked so hard for.

This is how I'm going to deal with my life and I'm excited for everything to play out. I'm 16 years old, a Junior in high school, and I've had and enlightenment.

-Author Of Tomorrow

Superheros!

Okay so everyone seems to be fascinated with superheros. Well I decided to play 'superhero' last weekend. And the first thing with being a super hero is a name.
Villan: Gramatical Guru! me!!! Come on that is one amazing superhero name!!
Villan sidekick: Spelling Bee: Chesnee!!! Haha did you get it?

Hero: Brettman! obviously brett...

Yup and my uncle has this broken lawnmower thing that I dubbed the Gramatical Go Kart
Anyway that's it so yeah...

If you were a superhero what would your name be?

Hmmm...

So, not a whole lot has been going on other than it's halfway through the second week of school. I wonder If I left any important things out of last post... Well just to make sure let me go over the monumental stuff.
1. my math class was really hard to find... I sat in the wrong class for 1o minutes... Well part of that was because I'm blind.
2. My friend Jordan who moved away to Reno during Sophomore year just moved back and is here to stay! =)
3. I am horrible under peer pressure.... 1 example: a couple days ago Kate forgot her lunch so she begged Jordan to drive her to her house. Originally I didn't want to go, I thought they would be late. So they said 'oh come on! We're not going to be late!' <----- that's the pressure part...
then I said 'fine'
SO we got into the car... AFTER we walked four blocks (Jordan didn't know that he could park in the student parking lot for 5$ for the whole year.) Then Kate and Jordan were horrible at communicating so we went in two huge circles then had to go back to school because we were'nt going to make it.
So basically that's it. Yup my first week and a half as being a Junior.
OH!!! And we're going to do the Junior Lipsync!!!! We're going to do it to the song 1985 by Bowling For Soup. And the coolest part is, is that my aunt is a makeup artist so we're going to look awesome!
Oh! And I'm going to be dressed up as a guy and one of my guy friends is going to be the girl.(This is incredibly funny considering I'm very short and my guy friends are freakishly tall =) )
YUP THAT'S IT
-AUTHOR OF TOMORROW

Junior Year

Sorry I've been really busy with school starting and such. But on a brighter note I finally got my schedule! Here are my classes for Junior year. (I have to do this by days because it varies and is really confusing to me)

1. Video Production 2
2. U.S. History
3. Aerobics/Body sculpt
4. Earth and Space Science
5. English 3
6. Animal/Vet. Science
7. Algebra 2

Yup those are my classes. And here is my weekly schedule. (Very confusing!)

Monday: Periods 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, and 7

Tuesday: same as Monday

Wednesday: same as Tuesday

Thursday: 1, 2, 3, and 4

Friday: 5, 6, and 7

So on Mon. Tues. and Wed. I have 45 minute classes and get out at 2:50 (start at 8:10) Thursdays I have 90 minute classes, start the same and end the same. Now Friday deserves a whole new paragraph.

So on Friday, I have 90 minute classes as well. I start at 8:10 and end somewhere near 12:30. That's not bad. Except for the five minute passing periods. 5th period I have in the Main Building, which is one one side of the campus. 6th period I have in the Science Building which is one the other side of campus. Then I have 7th in the Math Building which is by the Main Building. I have to run if I'm going to make it to class on time. Plus my 6th is really hard to find. In the Science building it goes S16, S17, S 18, Then you turn to a different hall and you get S20 through like 24. You see they decided to stick S19 (my 6th period class) near S22.... Does that even make sense? NO!!!!

Okay, I'm done with that. Now onto the other dilema of Friday. Okay, the High School gets out an hour earlier all the other schools. So all the students that have to take a bus (ME!) have to wait an hour til the buses come and pick us up after they've gotten everyone else so their not off schedule. At least I'm luck that I have my iPod. Needless to say I'm going to come to despise Fridays with a passion.

I'm done ranting and such so Adios and send your 'hurry to your class angels' to me every Friday. Starting tomorrow would be nice.

Author Of Tomorrow

Last Day Of Summer

Well, it's the last day of summer... Kind of bummed but then again I'm excited to start the school year. I'm going to make sure that I get a 4.0 G.P.A. this year because I really want to get into a good college.
Oh and yesterday the 16th of August was my Cousin Teryn's 18th birthday! Congrats! Tyrone! (inside joke that involved a stalker that moved to Pasadena)
Yup I just can't wait! Oh and I can finally see my schedule for Junior year this evening. Probably later this evening I'll either post my schedule in a new post or edit it into this post.
I'm just very excited.
I'm excited about the whole new year, upper classmen thing.
I'm excited about my new classes and my teachers.
I'm excited about the kids who'll be in my classes.
I'm very excited about my english class! Jessi and I have to have English together! We'll drive the teacher nuts!!!
Anyway that's it untill I get my schedule!
Author Of Tomorrow

3 days

Well, three days left till school starts... very mixed feelings about this. I'm excited but also kind of nervous... I don't know why. I just am. Anyway Yesterday was a HUGE day. We went shopping in Reno at the mall. We got tons of new clothes. And everyone but me got new shoes. All the shoes I wanted were too big... Oh well my old ones still work I just need a new pair of shoelaces.
Oh and I'm really upset! My little brother got his schedule!! And not me! I really want to see what classes I have and whatnot. That's the most exciting part of school! (That is if you have cool classes.)
So that was yesterday. Today I sent three queries and am in the process of sending the fourth. I need to pick out a couple sample chapter and I'm having trouble deciding which ones. So I called my friends and turns out they don't answer or need to call me back. But right now I'm enjoying the break from writing stuff about my story and I. It's pretty tiring.
Anyway that's it so I'm going to go on Myspace and Facebook now 'cause I don't feel like reading stuff so this is what I shall do.
Author Of Tomorrow

Times up

Well the literary agency that I've been waiting on for six weeks didn't reply so that means they don't like it... oh well. So as the title of the post says, times up. I've got to find more agencies and agents.... ugh, I hate this part...
Well I have to wait actually I got a free trial of Microsoft Word 2010 so I'm copying O.W.E.N. by HAND!!! to it! Well acctually maybe not... yeah never mind there is no way I'm going to rewrite 140 or so pages of this book... sorry but that is NEVER going to happen. Maybe when I'm like old and decrepit and well have nothing to do... Like retirement age... Doubt that will happen but whatever.
Blog to ya later! I've got to find more agents!
AuthorOfTomorrow
School in exactly NINE days... mixed emotions about this date....

Sorry!!!!

Sorry I haven't been blogging lately and as much as you want me to say that I couldn't blog because I was abducted by aliens, I'd be lying to you. The truth is i've just been really really lazy. don't blame me though. Blame this disease called being a teenager.
Anyway, There's really no update to talk about other than doom is approaching... meaning School.
Woo go Juniors! Class of 2012!
Haha, I just thought of this thing I read on facebook.
If the world ends in 2012 that means I spent all my life in school... great...
Well that's it for now
bye!
!

eh,

Well nothing has really been going on lately... Mainly I'm just waiting for a certain query letter to get back to me. I just have good feelings about it. I just hope they e mail me. On their website they said that they may not reply to me to give me a rejection. So I hope that they do, just so I know. Well I mean I hope they don't reject me but if they do I would like them to tell me. Make sense?
That's about it, I can't wait to go school shopping. It'll be fun, I mean I'm only going to visit two stores. Tilly's and Hot Topic. Maybe just Hot Topic. I don't know. But it will be fun to get out of the house.
I keep writing in short sentences and as much as it annoys you, it annoys me too. So blog to ya later.

Wooot!

Well I didn't exactly know what to call this post so I called it 'wooot'... yeah I know.
I guess there is a reason for the name, first off I'm excited for the Andrea Brown Literary Agency to get back to me because I good feelings about them. Plus the last two rejections I recieved said that they carefully considered my work and the other one said that I did have talent so I'm excited.
Also I'm mega obsessed with the song Your Sword verses My Dagger by Silverstein... It's amazing!! I've been listening to it nonstop for about three or four days now! I less than three it! I also love that saying (get it less than three <3)
And I have the most amazing desire to write but I'm not sure what story to write yet. I know that my friends will say the sequel to O.W.E.N., G.E.N.E. but I had a great idea for it but it takes place later and I'm having a hard time getting to that later part. All the parts in between are giving me writers block.
But I also have a couple stories that I really like writing that are based on my creepy wacked out dreams. One is about a war with these mystical creatures and I decided to put the characters to one story that wasn't doing too well in it and now I really like it!
The other dream was about a nuclear bomb... yeah I know I'm a weird child. Anyway I made up some characters for that one and it's basically about some mad man that wants to end the human race... But what happens when some people can survive the bomb? It's still a work in progress but I like the idea so far.
If you guys want me to post the first chapter of each story you can leave your comment in the comment box thing at the end of the post.
Well as you can see I just really enjoy writing so I better work on my stories rather than bore you with nonsense because I just want to type!
AuthorOfTomorrow!

Yeah, yeah

Yeah, I know I've been neglecting this dear old blog and such... oh well.

So not a whole lot has been going on other than that I might just possibly have my first date soon...

I know, if you know me you'd be like OMG! About Time!

Yup first date in sixteen years

Well other than that I got rejected 6/6 so it's time for me to look up some more agents and agencies that could possibly like my book

Oh, did you know that the great Dr. Suess was rejected 27 times before he found his publisher!

I'm in for a long road ahead of me but oh well I just hope it goes for the better

I'm only 16 anyway I don't need to be an author and still be in highschool (personally I think that would kill me)

Yeah, so that's what has been going on so I need to do some stuf before I die of the Summer Boredom so bye ma peeps

Vacation

So yeah, one thing about summer is the vacation! My brother and I are going on a two week vaca with our grandpa on tuesday. It'll be fun we're going traditional camping as to last year when we slept in a RV we're going to be sleeping in tents and stuff. No RV which is good because then we have no chance of scraping against a side of a mountain... yeah, we kinda did that... when we had to fix it up the lady knew right away because we did it so well, it was the only spot that was bling bling shinny...
Grr I hate that you can't use the Tab button on here... grrness
Anyway I'm just writing and listening to music oh that reminds me, We were listening to the radio on my cuz' phone and I liked this band called Hymns of Eden I should go check them out,

Summer

So yeah, it's summer already! Woot! Anyway not a whole lot has been going on... Teryn graduated friday. Woot go class of 2010! That's been the only thing that went on since I last blogged. Um, I got a major sunburn sunday from watching Teryn and Brett's baseball games... the good thing is that I didn't get a farmer's tan because I pulled my sleeves up... bad news, because I pulled my sleeves up I got the worst part of the sunburn on the top of my shoulders... ow! Yeah, so because of that burn relief aloe gel has become my best friend.
Yesterday we went on a walk with our big dogs (Saint Bernard: Porterhouse and English Mastiff: Zues the Moose) some kid and their loose dog ran by us and Porter went nuts and kncoked my uncle down ontop of Moose and sort of squished him. We finally got to the canal so the dogs could cool off. Moose was enjoying it and Porter house was justg being difficult. He chased those kids and the dog again. (What really annoyed me was that those kids just kept going so Porter ran after them, I know he's 150 lbs but he isn't scary looking! Man, it took forever for Brett to get him back on the leash.)
So we finally got Porter and Brett pushed himin the water almost knocking Chesnee and I in. It was a funny sight actually.
We got home with my crazy brother dancing with a stick! He wanted to do that when he was an old man so he could make kids laugh. It was funny, I laughed till I got a stomach ache.

Long time no post

Hey, sorry I've been really inconsiderate to my blog I've just been busy with school and such. We have finals coming up and I really just need to study for one and that's Spanish 2. It's going to be extrememly hard for me because I'm just not really good at it.
In other news though school ends in 4 days!!! Woot Woot!
Oh and I'm trying to convince my aunt to buy me drums. I'm learining online. I weanted a bacn for the longest time and it's now just coming together. The name right now is We Need Lives.
Singer: Kate
Guitar:Katie
Bass: Griff
Drums: Me!
Yeah so far that's it Kate said that if I learn how to play the drums she'll take singing lessons! It'll be really cool because this will be my first instrument and I'm excited!!!
Well that's all for now.... See ya in the Summer !!!!

hey!

Well nothing musch to write about but I would like to say that Jessi shouldn't post that comment on my blog that she said she would post in my blog.... Yes you are right... well ya know what the heck no one comments on this ol' thing anymore. So go ahead... post the comment amd make me blush madly lols. Yeah well most people won't get what this is about so basically this post is pointless but I thought I would check in so here I am... checking in... yup...

wassup????

Well, forget that last post... SHe just kinda walked up to me and acted like nothing happened so I went along with it. Anyway these last couple of days have been pretty amazing. You see... there's this guy that I like. And I'm positive he likes me back. (I know, I know, every girl says the same thing and blah blah blah...) But he has to like me 'cause while I'm sneaking glances at him he's doing the same thing! And we blush when talking to each other and we smile and wave to each other.(Even though for one class we sit like right next to each other!) But he makes me feel so happy. I mean I don't get this kind of happy often. I really like it. I love it. Anyway yeah that's been it. Tomorrow I see him again! :D He's in one of my A day classes and in one of my B day classes!
Oh yeah I almost forgot!
Queries sent: 6
Queries rejected: 4
Queries accepted: 0
Awaiting answers: 2
well now that's it!! Adios mi amigos! (I had espanol dos today!)

Well, ever had a midlife crisis?

Gosh, do I ever feel like I'm having a midlife crisis. Well with my friends anyway. Well maybe it's more like friend. I don't know... Okay so I might as well give you the story.
I was sitting in the math building with my headphones on and listening to my music. Kate comes over and greets me like she usually does. Nothing unusual. Then she starts talking and I turn off my music and say huh? the she gets all mad at me cause I wasn't listening to her. She t5hen talked to me again and I still couldn't hear her. Anyway she stalked off and I get mad cause what did I do? For her information I couldn't hear anyway cause I had a ear infection and I can't hear out of that ear. Anyway I was having a bad day and I refused to talk to her so I drowned her out with my headphones all day. Then in Spanish 2 she told everyone that I was mad cause she dissed my headphones. I was mad because she always drowns me out with her music and she is ten times more moody than I am.
Anyway no one would work with me in Spanish because of what she said.
Today she greeted me by kicking me. (Not like hard but she still kicked me) she asked me if I was going to act mature today. That got me mad. I said, I dunno can we? And then she stalked off.
Also everytime today she tried to get my attention she yanked on my 20$ headphones nad repeatedly poked my head. I'm sorry but I absolutely hate people touching me! I don't even do hugs. They're akward I guess cause I only hugged my Mom and now that she's gone I just don't do that whole human contact thing very well.
Anyway I haven't told her why I'm mad cause I know that I'll let my emotions get the better of me and this will turn into a whole ugly thing.
She said that our friendship is going to end unless I say sorry I guess.
But I don't feel right saying sorry. It is my right as a human being to have emotions and to show them I shouldn't be punished because I showed a bad one. So I hate to say but not only do I belive in what I just said but I'm also very stubborn but she will have to apologize first.

On a brighter note, well it's actually not that bright. I got rejected again, so this leaves four rejections. So now I need to send more queries. But I'm in a bad mood so maybe I'll do it later.

Now to make some of you laugh.
Okay, yesterday I was supposed to walk to the basbeall field. As in NOT get on the bus. I was so stressed with Kate not to mention we had a huge Spanish test. I compltely forgot and got on the bus. When I was aready to a different school I realized... OH CRUDNICKLES! I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO BE ON THE BUS! so I freaked and had to get on the other bus that took me to my house. I got to my house thinking: Okay my aunt won't kill me if I get inside and call her. (My phone died so I left it at home) Turns out this was the only day we left our door unlocked. SO i was stuck outside for an hour and a half sleeping on my porch worrying about my aunt killing me when she gets home.
Turns out my aunt figured I forgot and laughed at me. I was out on a porch for an hour... sleeping on my backpack... she laughed... Well, what a day...

Hey

Hey guys just want to say hi and also there is this blog I'm following and the guy who writews it is funny, I believe. Any way here is his blog: http://peopleplanet-cullen.blogspot.com
So, here is my writing thingy mabob thing that I just made up:
Queries Sent: 4
Query Rejected: 2 =(
Query Accepted: 0
Well, that may not look good but Oh well
Today I wrote on my arm! I put BFMV and TDG(I meant to put a 3 but I didn't at first so I put a 3 connecting to the bottom of the T) and 5FDP! I was going to put AD2R but my friend wouldn't hand over the Sharpie so I'm one band short.
For the people who have no idea what I abbreviated:
BFMV: Bullet For My Valentine
TDG: Three Days Grace
5FDP: Five Finger Death Punch
AD2R: A Day To Remember
Well that's all!

Books, Books and more Books

Truth be told I'm still a little undder the weather but whatever. I'm better than I have been, I still have my lungs where they're supposed to be rather than in my throat from my vicious coughing. Anyway... guess what!
Yup!
I've started to send queries to agents! I tried to send one to one company but I wasn't eighteen so they wouldn't let me. Another one denied me from my synopsis and all, they said that it wasn't what they were looking for. (Personally I think because I said that I was sixteen they just denied me from that.) Anyway I searched a whole lot yesterday and found 19 agents that would be interested in the genre of my book. Turns out only six of them are the real thing. The others were scams and self publishing companies. Self-Publishing companies will publish your book for weather your any good or not but no one will read it. It won't be published my anyone that has a real company therefore Self-Publishing= Not Good For Me.
So today my agenda is send queries to the six agents I liked and see what goes from there. I would have sent a couple yester but I was far too lazy and I watched 'The Lovely Bones' and it made me cry, my aunt wanted me to watch it for me to see how easily someone could get kidnapped and killed but it hit me on a much more emotional tone. Anyway my brother was laughing at it and I fired out at him. He should know better than everyone else what Death is and he laughed at it. It made me angry that he showed such disrespect. My aunt caught me lashing out at him and sent me to bed, but she understood and it was all good.
Anyway back to the agenda part. I'm thinking of sending a couple of the queries today. Well not thinking about sending them, I'm thinking about doing them. I'm just gald it won't cost me anything everyone is doing e-mail queries this day and age which is good for me 'cause I'm a sixteen year old with a zero point zero salary. I just hope they won't be too harsh if they tell me that they don't like it. I understand that I'm going to get a few 'no's before I ever get a 'yes' but I get impatient and tend to give up but I'm hoping that my friends and family won't let me. I think that getting a 'no' make me more determined to keep sending it to people so I can later rub it in said companies' faces. That would make me smile. =)
Anyway that's all I plan to do today, not much but oh well.
-AuthorOfTomorrow

hey

hey guys sorry I haven't been real dedicated lately the truth is that I've been sick and missed three days of school so yeah, well that's really all that's been going on so, yeah. Well I'm going to get some rest I'm coughing my very lungs up as I type so hi and well, bye!
AuthorOfTomorrow

The End Of Spring Break...

Aw, it's the end of Spring Break, that sucks but the good thing is that I've done everything I wanted to: Sleep!
And I've also done some unexpected things as well:
I tried to do my make up to look all scene like and it actually turned out pretty well
And! I finished my book, O.W.E.N. like I finally got around to completely editing it so that it's virtually flawless. Well I hope so, I want to have some of my friends read it then we'll see but I hope that it's ready, I spent a good majority of today and yesterday fixing it up.
Any way that has been my break not very exciting but oh well, I spent it how I wanted to so that's all that mattered.
AuthorOfTomorrow

Poem

I thought of this poem last night:

I hate when they fight
Especially at night
When we're supposed to be in our bed
Supposed to have happy dreams in our head
When they start to curse
I know things will get worse
But when will they cease
And bring the peace
So when we start a new day
We will forget what they say

Well...

Well nothing has been going on so far, well nothing exciting at least. I'm just doing normal teenage stuff. Wow, I thought I would never hear that.

My day:

1. Got caugt reading under my desk... Back in California I was famous for that... anyway that was Math
2. Lunch: had to apologixe to Kris for having a breakdown. I don't know what really happened, I just started to bawl in P.E. and it carried on through lunch and Kris was trying to be a good friend and I really didn't want him to see me with teary eyes and a beat red puffy face
3. Kate and I got in a miniature argument about my anti-depressants I want to take and she thinks that I don't need them I could have rebuttled with what happened to me on friday but I didn't feel like starting an argument. (Kate went on a UNR trip friday, she wasn't there. I'm kind of glad she wasn't, I mean she knows all about my... losses?, no, my greif?, my deaths? Well she knows and all but I don't want people to see me like that. I AM NOT EMO OR GOTHIC OR SCENE! Emo means emotions... I do admit that I have very uncontrolable emotions but I don't cut myself anymore.(The scars from the last time I cut myself are swtill there and that's beginning to worry me, I only used my nails, and I didn't even cut deep enough to draw blood[eventhough I wanted to] I just don't know why they're not healing) Gothic means well I'm not sure what it means my closest guess would be like Wiccans or something. But as it goes to show I can't be something that I don;t know what it is. Right? And Scene is like posers for emo. They pretend they have life problems or turn small things like losing a cell phone or getting grounded to losing a loved one or being abused. I have real problems so how could I possibly WANT to make something up?
4. I'm doing a new project, I'm going to try to write a novel in a guy's point of veiw without him sounding sexually confused. I want him to be a guy that would act like a teenaged guy. What I'm most worried about is writing about someone's abs in excellent description and having that description come out of my male character. Also I'm having trouble finding a good name that I haven't used before, I've used: Shane, Nick, Xavier, Chase, Justin, Seth, Danny, Owen, Tray,Marcus, Nathaniel, Willam, Nicolaus... Um I think that's it but if you guys can think of a name I would greatly appreciate it.
5. I totally want to start a James Patterson fan club, I swear if I can write as good as 1/10006493246823946329610 of this guy I would feel so accomplished as a writter. He is truly amazing and my writing idol. He's written the famous Maximum Ride, Daniel X, Witch and Wizard, and so many more(the ones I just listed are the teen ones) He's also more famouse for his array of adult books like: The Womans Murder Club, Alex Cross, and so many more. I'm reading a couple of his adult books. I've already finished When The Wind Blows and now I'm working towards finishing the sequel: The Lake House(Yes, that was the book I wwas reading when I got in trouble today,I'm just a crazy bibliophile!) . I also bought his first Alex Cross book. I can't wait. It doesn't matter to what age group he's writting to his adult books capture me, a sixteen-year- old girl. And his teen books have captured my grandmother just as easily if he were fishing.
6. My aunt and uncle are having some trouble up in Reno where they are dropping off my uncles' brother, the flight got delayed and it's windier than ever. And my lil bro had baseball practice today, he really lucked out. He was bummed that he couldn't go but his coach(coincedently also named Brett) picked him up and he was as chipper as he could be. So now it's just Chesnee, Porter House, Zeus the Moose, Evan, Stanley, C.J., and me. It's pretty quiet. I like it, well It's quit considering I can't hear anything other than Bullet For My Valentine screaming in my ear. =)

That's just about been it. Below is the begining of my Guy's P.O.V story entitled May 26th. Enjoy!

May 26th 2010. Nothing special, just another Wednesday. I bet someone told you everything was normal. They're wrong. That day, that seemingly normal Wednesday everything went wrong.

Now I bet your're confused, so let me backtrack a day, Tuesday The day before the Disaster.

I groaned silently as my alram clock went off. It was way too early, for both the time and the day of the week. I blearily opened my eyes and grunted knowing that I would have to face the day sooner or later. As much as I wished I could stay curled up in my bed I knew I had to go to school.

Yes, I realize that I actually could sleep in, call myself in, and play hooky. But sinde there was no one to wake me up and I would beat myself up afterwards I shrugged on what smelled like a clean shirt and jeans. After looking under bowls of long-forgotten food and clothes that were decompposing before my very eyes for my shoes and socks that didn't have holes. After I got ready I grabbed my backpack and ran out of the door.

As usual as any other day I started mt walk to school. The long walk was boring, especially being the only kid on the face of the earth stuck without an i-Pod or cell phone. When a sixteen year old kid has to live in an abandoned house, phone and music payments are way out of the question. So now I've seem to have gotten your attention. Yeah, you heard me right; I live in an abandoned house with no one but me, myself, and I. And I'm sixteen years of age, awfully young to live alone and provide for myself. Now if you're thinking that, I need to ask you a question. What era do you live in exactly? It's the twenty-first century. Kids my age are hooked on drugs, alcohol, or sex. So you really shouldn't be surprised that I am in my situation. You should be more surprised that I am actually a responsible sixteen year old guy. Well responsible in the area of not doing drugs or being addicted to alcohol and sex.

Well that's it so far, But the main character still needs a name, I thought of Ethan but that's an evil guy in the book I'm reading so I'm not sure if that's really going to work.

AuthorOfTomorrow

Uh... gee does every post need a title?

Nothing has been going on lately just been on Facebook and other sites and hoping my English Grade can pull through I just can't wait for spring break. I heard that Nevada gets 2 weeks of Spring Break! I hope that's true. Anyway I'm going to work on my story so see ya later!

Why doesn't he understand that I am so weak? That I need someone to love to keep my heart open. Why has he forgotten what it's like to be loved? Why does he make me want to cry and scream and hurt? Now I'm beginning to lose my only tie to being a normal kid, and losing the fragile gate that's trying so deperately hard to keep my heart open. I can't keep losing people! Two are already gone and I can't ever get them back. And now the only one I have left is changing to someone completley unrecognizable. Am I going to be stuck lost in the vortex of grief and depression forever? For the first time since my mothers' death I am scared. Completely and utterly scared. And there is nothing I can do to stop it, there is nothing I can do to change him, my light is gone.
What do I do now?

As of now my blog readers

As of now I'm going to mainly going to be hanging out on facebook because a whole bunch of my old friends from California are on there and I've missed them a lot so that's where I'll be.
Not much to say no excapt that it snowed this morning but that's it so I'll stop typing and save my typing fingers for my friends!
authoroftomorrow

What am I? Well a lot of things. I can't be just one... Can I?

Sorry for the uber long title. My counselor called me out of my health class today, she wanted to talk to me. Since the C.P.S. person came over I haven't been too keen on telling my counselor that I was stupid enough to actually believe lies that could destroy my family. But she isn't mad at me. Anyway we were talking about how I felt and of course I said that since I was grounded for speaking my feelings I haven't been interested in anything anymore and that I think I have 'depression'. She says that she thinks I do. (See! Now I can't be that crazy!) And she got me talking about suicide... A teen trend these days. I spilled. I told her that no I would never want to kill myself, but hurting myself is another story. I told her that I've cut myself twice, Once when I first got here, I told her how one of my friends was in a bad situation and that she showed my how and where to cut myself. (You know like with what tools and where people won't look) And I told her that I did it wrong and it really burned, not like it was supposed to. And I told her about when I cut myself a mont or so ago. I went to the bathroom and dug my nails into my skin, the cut didn't bleed like I wanted it too, it burned but that was good enough. And I told how I wanted to do it again today. Because I scratched Brett, I didn't want to hurt him I just wanted him to leave me alone. But my nails were stronger than I thought and I made him bleed, so then I needed to do something worse to myself because that was what I deserved for hurting someone who I loved so dearly.
Then we went on talking about my parents and what that made me. An orphan. I told her about a health assignment we had to do: There are 10 pple on a sinking boat, a life boat can only hold five people the other five will die, choose which five will live and die.
Anyway there was a family of three, a widow and her children. Someone wanted to save the children but leave the mom to die, I said that that would make them orphans, someone I know is an orphan that wouldn't be fair t0 the kids. (We have to use the term 'someone I know') Then she said, Yeah I guess you're right if they were orphans they would probably end up killing themselves doing something stupid.
I would've hit her right then and there but would that have made me a hypocrite? I don't want to kill myself but I have written suicide notes.
My counselor asked my why I cut and I say: There's no other way to get it out. I've written suicide notes to help me see what I have to live for, but I get yelled at, I get yelled at for beating on others too, the only way to help my feelings is to do something they don't know about.

When I said that I want help but no one is telling me how to get out, or telling me how to be mature. Technically I'm stuck inside a 14 year olds mind(when my mom died I was fourteen) My counselor agrees that no one is helping me. She said that I could use pills(anti-depressants)(she said this only after I brought them up) And that I would need more than that. But she's helping my step out of the cycle. I've been stcuk in it for almost two years and now I might finally be on the outside never to look in again. Isn't that a happy thought?
Well I'm done with my rant now so blog to you guys later.
-AuthorOfTomorrow

hey long time no see... err blog?

yeah as u can tell I haven't been doing my normal everyday blogging and what not but I guess the truth is that I haven't been feeling normal lately. I'm having another rough patch in my life but who doesn't? I don't really know what this rough part is really about. I think I'm going into depression. I think it's because I don't have to worry about things much anymore that I just don't have much to do and therefore aren't interested in anything anymore. Except my writting that is. That could also conclude for my "attitude" lately. From my aunt's perspective i've been moody and grouchy and just in general pretty horrible to everyone that matters (family and friends). But it's not like I try to be this way I just do it, like a second instinct, it just happens before I can think. Don't know how to stop it. And I'm not sure if I want to stop it either. If I don't care about things then maybe things in my life will become easier. Like deaths, for example, if I'm not close to anyone anymore then I dot have to go through what I did. I don't see why my aunt would be complaining that I keep acting like this. One, if I don't think about anything I get bored, which means that I will do my homework without complaint. So my daily routine would be something for someone like me to worship.

1. get up(get dressed, brush teeth, eat, ect.)
2. go to school (just deal with teachers)
3. lunch(put on a mask for my friends or retreat to the bathroom)
4. go home(after one more class)
5. do my homework
6. eat
7. go to bed(brush teeth, take shower)

To me it sounds great, slowly but surely I'm building a huge unbreakable shell that's keeping my sanity (or whats left of it) and myself away from the rest of the world. It sounds wonderfull and peaceful (despite my thoughts) If I could only find a way to keep my thoughts quiet then maybe I would be happy.

but the other dilema is my aspiring dream to be an author, clinically depressed or not I'm going to find a way to make that happen.

Oh, and another announcement before I go write and edit my many stories, PLEASE, IF YOU ARE NOT INTERESTED IN MY LIFE AND HENCEFORTH MY BLOG PLEASE DO NOT FOLLOW MY BLOG.

I find it highly disrespectable that people are following my blog just to follow it, and the fact that people are posting "bad" sites on my comments. This is a place for a teenage girl to express her life as it flies by. If you do not care for what happens to me then please do not follow. Mostly I think that people who follow my blog respect the fact that I am sharing some of my deep thoughts with the internet based world. Plus it's always nice to help a couple orphans here and there like me with their problems. Anyway please don't follow if you do not care for what is on here. It gets me happy when people are seeing what I have to say and abusing that really hurts me and I have enough inside dilemas going on to worry about how my suppsed followers don't care about what this blog is about.

I think I'm done lecturing so I'm off to write and possible watch some Naruto episodes. (darn you kate! how dare you get me adddicted to surprisingly not boring anime!)

AuthorOfTomorrow

movie

one thing!! I can not wait for Percy Jackson and The Olypians The Lightning Theif to come to my little town!!! WOO! TWO DAYS TILL MY SWEET 16!! Oh and Happy Valentines Day!

meds

we talked... we've come to the decision that right now i'm very emotionally unstable. And that I need antidepressents and meds that stop me from stressing. It kind of upsetted me because I shouldn't have to take meds to be able to be normal, but I guess it'll help. Plus all i want to be is normal and I think that this will really help me...
-AuthorOfTomorrow

# 3 = drastic measures

1: Grandmothers and spouse's house.
problem: Spouse beat my brother and I
solution: moving to aunt's house
2: Aunt's house.
problem(this is going to be a long one): They take the money we get for birthdays, holidays, ect. they use it to buy beer and gamble. We've had fights (my aunt and I) I have a scar on my leg from one. This I knew though, what I didn't know has nearly killed me emotionally. My mother and father sapent their whole lives saving up just in case something like this ever happened. My aunt gets about 3,000 a month for watching my brother and I. We sometimes don't have any water or food. or sometimes clothes(speaking of which I'm a desperate need of a good pair of sneakers). She and her boyfriend have been using this money to gamble and buy beer and we're left with horrible living comditions. What really destroys me is that this is my mother and fathers money, They're taking my DEAD parents money and losing it!
solution: I'm taking my brother and I to our other grandmothers and other aunts house. That won't really wake them up, this will though. If the situation isn't good for us then it obviously isn't good enough for their seven year old daughter. We're going to give her a good home too.
So now we're back to my title number three. This will be our third try at a normal life. This will be our last try because I know with every fiber of my being that this will finally be our break.

I think I'm crazy

One moment I'm sparring with my brother and the next I'm yelling at him to fight me again and again, I fling my fist towards him. At this point I can't even see. All I see is red, red fury, or rage, I can't decide. The next moment I'm on the floor and I'm pounding my head on the floor seeing white flashes of light. I pounded it three times. I pounded my fists a couple times embracing the pain, loving it. Then I screamed, I was scared, ffrustrated, and I wanted to, needed to scream, my screams were high pitched at first then came from my heart ripping out of my throat faster than I could close my mouth. I couldn't understand what people were saying, I couldn't even here them. I think I'm going crazy, and this hasn't happened for a couple months now... I need an asylum.

Aww he does Care! I hope...

Before I get into my story I must explain to you my phone: It randomaly powers down usually when I need it most or when someone needs to tell me something important.
Okay story time:I was in my spanish classroom studying for an oral presentation(mine was so awesome, I did the difference between Ozzy Osboune's Crazy Train and Bullet For My Valentine's version. The assignment was to tell the diference between something new and old.) Anyway little did I know(actually I didn't know at al until afterward) Teryn, my beloved cousin was trying to get a hold of me. He tried and tried and tried this proved futile until I was on th bus ans found that my phone was experiencing it's problems. I turned it back on and said 'hey why do I have five missed calls and a voicemail?' I listened to the voicemail it was something like this 'ANSWER YOUR PHONE!' Teryn yelled in an enraged voice. Uh-Oh.
Just then my phone vibrtated Teryn:The Super Loser (lol my brother gave him the name and I've been too lazy to think of a new one... not that that doesn't fit..) 'Hello'
'Where are you!'
'On the bus'
'What! didn't you get my calls! I've been calling you since lunch!'
'Uh...' Yeah... apparently I was suppposed to walk to my Grandma's... Oops... I go by the old fashoined memo type thing.
Yeah so apparently from the 'Where the hell are you!' was a sign of love! lol.. well at least I hope so because I accidently got him grounded for the weekend...
Apparently(wow I say apparently a lot in this post) my aunt didn't know that we were going to go there. Yah and I accidently ratted him out by saying that he was going to go pick me up at the bus exchange place.Oops....
Anyway this is all that has happend lately besides I'm sure I broke a guiness world record...(how do you spell that?) Let me explain my diet for the past three days. lunch: pizza dinner: pizza
lunch:pizza dinner: pizza breakfast: pizza lunch:pizza and dinner:pizza! (My aunt and uncle got out a lot this week so this was basically all we had to eat cause we basically ran out of food again...)(i'll explain our food/water/money situation some other time but I'm in a good mood so I won't bring it up now)
-AuthorOfTomorrow

Music And Spanish

Hey! I have to do this thing for my Spanish class, it's a comparison project. I'm, being the music junkie that I am, comparing Classic Rock to Modern Rock. My Exhibits: Crazy Train by Ozzy Osbourne and Crazy Train remake by Bullet For My Valentine! I think I'll do pretty good. sINCE i am on here and have my Ipod I am going to name all my artists!
All That Remains
Apocalyptica Feat. Three Days Grace
Ill Nino
Staind
As I Lay Dying
In Flames
Static X
Atreyu
Killswitch Engage
Stemm
Avenged Sevenfold
Korn
Stone Sour
BeatFreakz
Lacuna Coil
Straight Line Stitch
Breaking Benjamin
Linkin Park
Switchfoot
Bullet For My Valentine
Marilyn Manson
Theory Of A Dead Man
Crossfade
MegaDeath
Thousand Foot Krutch
Da Rude
Mudvayne
Three Day's Grace
A Day To Remeber
My Chemical Romance
Three Doors Down
Demon Hunter
Nickleback
Tokio Hotel
Disturbed
Otep
Trapt
Drowing Pool
Papa Roach
3oh!3
Evanesence
Papercut Massacre
Everlife
Parkway Drive
Fall Out Boy
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Five Finger Death Punch
Rob Zombie
Framing Hanley
Saliva
The Fray
Seasons After
Frickin' A
Sevendust
God Forbid
Shadows Fall
Green Day
Shinedown
Hell Yeah
Sick Puppies
Hellogoodbye
Simple Plan
Hollywood Undead
Skillet
Iced Earth
Slipknot
Unknown Artist (lol I blame limewire)
-AuthorOfTomorrow

Just 15 more lazy, long, type awaiting days!

For those of you who do not know, the date todaqy is February 1st 2010. I am fifteen and have been fifteen for 350 days! That sure is a long time and I just have to wait 15 more days till I leave that number and move on to the next one! 16! Yay! well that's really all that I have been concerned about lately so... oh and here below is a banner I made for my novel! I made it for free at mybannermaker.com it's awesome!

-AuthorOf Tomorrow

Oh another thing I swear someone must have slipped pixie sticks in my sandwich or something I was soooooooooo sugar high at lunch today! :)

Who Knew Health Was Depressing?

As the title says I obviously had health today. My teacher is cool. What we had to do today was not. We had to do this thing to see how long we would live. You start with 76 years. Now let me type my questions and answers. Caution: This WILL be long! This will be me and this will be Brett

Also since emotional problems are not even closely related to mental problems I am taking this survey based on how I was before my mom died. Brett basically stayed the same.

1. Longevity if grandparent(greatgrandparents): Have any of you grandparents livd to age 80 or beyond? If so, add one year for each grandparent living beyond that age. Add one-half year for each grandparent beyond the age of 70.

+2 +2

2. Females tend to live longer than males by an average of 3 years so females add 3 years, males put a zero.

+3 + 0

3. Cardiovascular disease of closest relatives: Have any parent, grandparent, sisters or brothers died of a heart attack, stroke, or arteriosceriosis before the age of 60, subtract 2 years for each incident.

-2 - 2

4. Other hereditable diseases of close relatives: Have any parents, grandparents, sisters, or brothers been diagnosed with diabetes or peptic ulcers? Subtract one year for each incidence. If any of these close relatives died before 80 of stomach cancer, subtract 2 years. Women whose close female relatives have died before 60 of breast cancer should also subtract two years.

? (teach said idk counts as zero) +0 +0

5. Blood Pressure: Most people who know they have high blood pressure do something about it. If you know your blood pressure high or low add 1 year.

+0 +0 (We have no idea! We're not doctors!)

6. Mother's age at your birth: Was your mother over the age of 35 or under the age of 18 when you were born? If so, subtract 1 year.

+0 + 0

7 . Birth order: Are you the first born in your family? If so, add 1 year.

+1 + 0

8.Weight: Are you currently overweight? If you are not over overweight but you have been overweight at any point in your life, subtract 2 years. If your weight is within an appropriate range, add 2 years.

+2 +2

9. Dietary habits: Do you eat very little food with saturated fats (red meat, fried foods, meats, snack foods, etc.)? That is, fewer than two meals per week? If so, add two years. If you eat heavily of foods with high saturated fats, four or more meals per week, subtract 2 years.

+2 +2

10. Smoking: How much do you smoke? If you smoke 2 or more packs of cigarettes/ marijuana a day, subtract 8 years. If you smoke between 1 and 2 packs a day, subtract 4 years. If you smoke less than a pack a day, subtract two years... If you have quit smoking congratulations, add 1 year if it was more than two years ago. If you have never smoked add 2 years.

+2 + 2

1o .5. Second hand smoke: if someone that lives in your house smokes cigarettes, cigars, or any other drug add 3 years. If they smoke outside add 2 years. (My grandpa smokes in his house when we're there but we don't live with him so I'm taking away 2)

-2 - 2

11. Drinking: Teens who drink put themselves at risk for death. If you drink three to four drinks three or more times a week per week, subtract 3 years. If you have five or more drinks on any day in a week, subtract 6 years. (We were learning about hereditary diseases. Everyone in my Family drinks. I think the five kids(me, Brett, Jess, Teryn, and Chesnee have alcoholism. Which means that if we drink alcohol its easier for us to get addicted to it. I don't want to drink anyway because of how mom died but Brett and especially Teryn talk about drinking a lot! I hope to God[ if he is even there] that they are the black sheep and don't have it so I don't have to worry so much about them!)

+0 + 0

12. Exercise: How much do you exercise? If you exercise at least three times a week, for at least 15 minutes each time, at one of the following jogging, bike ridding, swimming, taking long brisk walks, dancing or skating, add 3 years. Just exercising on the weekend does not count. If you lead a sedentary life, subtract 3 years.

+3 +3

13. If you generally fall asleep right away and get 6 to 8 hours of sleep per night, you're average and should neither add nor subtract years. However, if you sleep excessively (ten or more hours per night) or if you sleep very little (five or less hours per night), you probably have problems. Subtract 2 years.

+0 +0

14 . Regular physical examinations: Do you have an annual physical examination by your physician. If so, add 2 years. (HAHAHAHA we don't even have health insurance anymore!)

+0 +0

15. Health status: Are you in poor health? Do you have a chronic health condition, (asthma, bronchitis, heart murmer,etc.) or are you frequently ill? If so, subtract 5 years. (my poor baby bro has asthma...)

+0 -5

16. Drugs(other than alcohol): If you have never used drugs add 1 year, if you have, subtract 2 years.

+1 +1

17. Rural vs. urban dwelling: If you live in an urban area and have lived in or near the city for most of your life, subrtact 1 year. If you have spent most of your life in a rural area, add 1 year.

- 1 -1

18 . Life changes: Are you always changing your things in your life, Changing schools, Changing home ,Changing friends, Changing your appearance? If so, subtract 2 years. Too much change is stressful. (My teacher said that family problems don't count because emotional and mental are comepletely different)

+0( after moms death -2 for both of us) +0

19. Friendship: Do you generally like people and have at least two close friends in whom you can confide almost all the details of your life? If so, add 1 year. (Brett says he doesn't have any close friends but he is definitely a people person!)

+1 +1

20.Agressive personality: Do you always feel that you are under time pressure? Are you agressive and sometimes hostile, paying little attention to the feelings of others? Subtract 2 to 5 yearsdepending on how well you fit this description. The more pressured, aggresive, and hostile you are, the greater your risk of heart disease.

-2(after moms death -5) +0

21 . Flexible personality: Are you a calm, reasonable, relaxed person? Are you easygoing and adaptable, taking life pretty much as it comes? Depending upon the degree to which you fit this description, add 1 to 3 years. If you are rigid, dogmatic and set in your ways, subtract 2 years.

+2(after moms death -2) +3

22. Risk taking personality: If you have had a traffic ticket or accident in the past year subtract 4 years. Other violations subtract 1. If you always wear your seatbelt, add 1.

+1 +1

23. Depressive personality: Have you ever been depressed, tense, worried, or guilty for more than a period or a year or two? If so, subtract 1 to 3 years depending upon how seriously you are affected by these feelings.

+o(after moms death -3 for both of us) +0

24.Happy personality: Are you basically happy and content, and have you had a lot of fun in life? If so, add 2 years. People with feelings like this are the ones who live to be 100

+2(I was happy and I am happy when I am with my friends) +2


This gives me a total of 93 and Brett a total of 85

My worst fear is Brett dying before I do...

OMG THIS POST TOOK ME TWO DAYS TO TYPE!!!!!

Phase One

Phase One: Complete
Date: February 5th 9:30(Yay I get to miss a class!!)
Uhh: Well that's just about it tomorrow I have my two new classes! Oh and there is a poetry out loud thing I want to do! so I'll see about that its on my b-day Feb 16th and at 6 o'clock... speaking of which I need to talk to my aunt about it! bye

I have no Idea what to call this post

Urg, maybe I'm being a little too paranoid about my Master Plan... I was thinking about it last night and I mean I guess the idea is cool but I have a lot of things that could go face-plant-into-a-pile-of-super-sharp-rocks bad. Since I haven't done this in a while I shall make a list.

1. There is always the possibility that my counselor will say 'no' or just not agree with my Master Plan
2. Off topic but it needs a name like 'Master Plan Get Cookies'
3. I was thinking that I would need to tell my story first and when I'm done what if no one steps up... That would kinda be embarrassing
4. What if I set up a date and no one comes...
5. I want to set my group meeting thing for everyone in every possible bad situation. This would include people who have the same problems as me(death, witnessing death, abuse, dealing with loved one in hospital, alcoholism, uh if I can think of more I probably have dealt with it) But it would also include divorce or separation(I have never personally dealt with this but I've been around it a lot in the past two years so I know that it is by far not easy)

So many things could go terribly wrong but despite that I'm still going to try to help people like me anyway. I guess tomorrow(If I can talk to my counselor) is the real moment of truth.

-AuthorOfTomorrow

Yesterdays Lunch Time Extravaganza And My Master Plan!

Yes, I am actually pulling through and telling you about yesterdays Lunch Time Extravaganza! So as you all know and all will know I am a shorter than average person. My exact height seems to be something most people would like to know. Jessi and Kate would like to know. It all started out in Mr. Lattins room, with a completely innocent talk about how to make dynamite. Jessi wanted to know how tall I really was. Being me I protect my shortness due to reasons that are too... CIA induced... yes... to talk about here. So what do two insane teenagers due when their short little friend peacefully tries to turn their efforts futile? Why they tackle me to the floor and try to measure me with a yard and meter stick... All in all I was being poked with a meter stick by Griff and was being pinned to the floor... Have you ever truly used the expression 'saved by the bell'? Well they would have found out my secret if it had not been for the bell! With three teenaged girls tackling you to the floor armed with measuring sticks I was seriously running out of adrenaline and being a midget natural sugar high! If the bell had been any later they would know my height! I would tell them if I knew myself but I don't... and according to me and my pride all the measuring sticks and tape are wrong!!
Now to my second order of business: MY MASTER PLAN
Usually my friends would be worried because I would try to infuse a plan with something explosive that would cause bodily harm or end us up in Juvi... But this plan is nothing of the sort! Believe it or not its for a good cause! While I was in Arizona I went to this place that was basically group counseling with my peers! Anyway my counselor said that at this point the only way I can get to a point where I can live a normal teenage life is if I help myself. I feel that the only way to help myself is by helping others. Basically I've been (and am going) through it all, death, having a loved one on their death bed, verbal, mental, and physical abuse to myself and my loved ones, having someone literally hate your guts more than you thought could ever be possible, living with drunks, cutting yourself, running away, well and any other horrible thing you could ever think of. Anyway my plan is to ask my counselor if I can set up sort of a club where kids my age can grieve and not be embarrased about it. I know that I CANNOT be the only orphan at my school! I know I CANNOT be the only one who has lived with what I had to live through. So that's my plan.
Phase One: Talk To Counselor
Date: Hopefully Monday
Level Of Success: Hopefully High
-Author Of Tomorrow

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hey guys, sorry jessi get to the lunch time extravaganza later. Today a couple minuets after my bus dropped me off at 'home' i found out how pissed a 15 year old girl can get! I am soo pissed its sort of unreal. Okay get this, my little brother is 12 he is the sweetest little kid ever! I mean this kid doesn't even want to hurt flies for pete's sake! Yes he sweet and open hearted he is also a 12 yr old boy and he does make pervish jokes every now and then (personaaly i dont thin he knows what half of them mean) But back to the point I've nown him for his whole life, my aunt however has only truly known him for less than a year. She found that somehow Brett was looing up PORN! MY LITTLE BROTHERS FAVORITE WORD TO SAY THAT ANNOYS ME MAY BE MASTERBATE BUT I SWEAR THAT BOY THINKS GIRLS ARE STILL GROSS! HE HASNT CHANGED MUCH FROM A SEMESTER AGO! AND MY AUNT IS ACCUSING HIM OF THIS! MAYBE SHE FORGETS THAT SHE HAS A SEVENTEEN YEAR OLD SON AS WELL! BRETT WOULDNT EVEN KNOW WHAT THE HELL PORN WAS IF IT WASNT FOR TERYN! thats one reason why i am majorly pissed off, another is since i stood up for my boy i am now in trouble! Can you believe that! my aunts exact words "next time you ask me to go to the movies or to kates or her come over here i'm going to say no" okay that was partially because of me standing up for my boy the other part is soo stupid that im laughing as im writting this. It's because I lost glue!!! i didn't even lose it! i never used it i just misplaced it! let me do a typed version of the coversation below.

Your Dear Pissed Off Blogger:

I Don't Even Know What To Call Her:

You need to find that bag of supplies, I gave it to you so maybe when we needed it we could use it.

Sorry I don't know where it is. Was there something special in the bag that you really needed?

No! Do you reallize that supplies cost money?

Yes. Do you want me to pay you back?

I can't even what became of that after that my anger is literally fogging my brain and memory even though this happened a few minutes ago! Then she started saying that my i need an attitude adjustjment! We got in a fight a couple days ago all about my attitude! Why can't you open up? Why can't you at least pretend to care if i died tomorrow? I'm mad at my aunt for drinking uncountable amounts of beer and going out and then coming home drunk and yelling at us! she just wont get that i sincerly care about how much she drinks! Does she not remember how my mother died? She died of alchohol poisining! I am NOT GOING TO SEE ANITHER FAMILY MEMBER IN A HOSPITAL WITH THEIR EYES AND SKIN YELLOWED! NOT BEING ABLE TO BREATH ON THEIR OWN! WITH BLOOD LEAKING OUT OF ALL OF THEIR PORES! BLOOD COVERED IN POSION! The very next day she went out and came home drunk again. I seriously wonder what the hell is going through her beer filled mind!!! Well i got a lot off my chest and i'm going to write about my lunch time later when i can actually see it clearly with out it being tinted in red anger.

-someone help us

wow

wow i was just looking through al my old posts and i'm thinking 'holy crap was i depressed!' I'm not saying that i am anywhere near getting over what has happened but it makes me feel better to see how much the gap has closed... also i think that it isnt a good idea to take posts off my blog just because a friend says that its scary... so starting this im go8ing to repost a post that i took off because what i talked about really scared my friend.... well im done now
AuthorOfTomorrow

My Masterpiece Is Complete!

MWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
As you can tell your overly insane blogger is well acting insane! Anyway I must announce that my Music Video is done! It worked out so perfectly that if I could scream for joy I would. ANYWAY I hope that you people can see but I'm not sure about putting it on here cuz well I am in the video. So is my little cousin and my Aunt would personally kill me if her seven year old daughter had a cyber stalker. Well yeah that's all that is happening I have to study for finals... grr but the good thing is that I have a three day weekend to look forward to! Woo now no one may question me if I sleep fourteen hours like every other teenager on the face of the earth! Well I'm gonna go now I have stories to write and all!
AuthorOfTomorrow

Slushie Ice Puddles Of Doom!!!

Well as the title states your young blogger has indeed met with the Slushie Ice Puddles Of Doom! And in a result of that I am sick... Of course I do blame myself... I did jump in it... although it doesn't help if your friend is encouraging it... oh well getting wet from the waist down isn't so bad it was actually fun. The fact that i made a puddle in my Spanish classroom... eh it could have gone better...
As if the same person who I won't mention *cough cough Griff cough* sorry my lungs were reacting. Anyway as if that same person didn't have enough fun watching me almost land face first into a slushie puddle he thought it would be hilarious if he would try to encourage me to try and pull the fire alarm... NOT THAT I DID!!!
Well what i did was get really close to it until Jessi and Kate yelled at me. And I tried to mispronounce PULL FIRE ALARM.
Somehow I came up with: if I pull the fire alarm a pool will come down and I have to swim in it with one arm... very weird and entertaining lunch...
AuthorOfTomorrow

Music Video

wow.... just wow... i have to do a music video for my video production and i choose the songGrow Up by Simple Plan yay so all i needed was a bunch of my friends and i taped in our natural habbits which causes pain for us cause we end up hitting each other or harming ourselves... which is why my nose is sore... i hit myself with a brush trying to lipsink... yes laugh... and we caught it on video... yes laugh more... anyway that's whats been happening. and im bored lol so bye
authoroftomorrow

Urg

Note to self: Do NOT play Rockband until 4: 30 in the morning.... oh and when the TV starts going blurry that's another clue that you need sleep
I need to listen to my conscience more often otherwise I'm a walking, talking, typing, and grouchy zombie of a fifteen year old...
AuthorOfTomorrow

happy new year

as the title says happy new year yeah yeah i know im a day late but oh well.. oh grr school starts again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 aggggggggggggh im soo not ready but besides that yay snow!
author of tomorow