secrets

im really sorry to announce that i havent told you guys the whole story
im moving
why?
answer: my grandfather who i am living with now whose not related to me has been beating my brother and yelling at him all the time and my little bro is just trying to grow up yet he gets beat for it we already had the cps come twice to me it shouldnt get to that point EVER so we are moving
we are moving to a little town in nevada and hopefully it will be better
we arent going to finish the school year here so my friends that read this im so sorry but i will move to antartica to make sure my brother wasnt getting hurt and he was happy afterall he is the reason i wake up in the morning

-pebbles

hey people today im in fallon navada with my family: my grandma,grandpa,aunts and uncles and my cousins: teryn whose 16, jessica whose 12 and chesnee whose 6. im sooo happy to be here so that is relly all i want to say soo..... yup thats it...

e-mail

i have just created a e mail for followers of this blog who want to get in touch than rather leave a comment


here it is:pebblesblog94@yahoo.com


ill check this e mail daily i hope but i dont want to make promises but ill really try to check this everyday

check it out

this blog is amazing
www.krimsonnet.blogspot.com
ist just another kids story trying to get through this game called life and the blog is amazing so check it out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry rachel

sorry rachel and justin(if you r reading this)
im sorry mostly to rachel for scaring you with all my depression but its not like i can help it
please dont be mad at me at school (schools worse enough i actually have to learn lol) seriously im okay

i dont need you to try to fix it i need you to listen
please your my best friend and you want to help im just trying to make it easier for you if thats possible

- pebbles

depression

somethings been really bugging me,writing about my moms birthday brought it up. this guy at school i wont mention his name or my school i don't need my blog readers to start a riot. anyway he said when i was feeling pretty depressed about my stupid life: no dad now no mom have to live in a retirement community having the cps (child protective services)check on us from time to time(pretty pathetic life if you ask me) well this guy just said "get over it" that really stung i mean how can i get over the death of a loved one especially since that loved one raised my brother and i alone. on the other hand should i be over it by now? i mean my mom died in may 2008 its almost been 6 months that should be long enough right? or am i just weak, a weak person that cant get over things? i don't know if i should be giving myself time or i should say"get over it you crybaby" i really don't know part of doesn't ever want to let go then the other part cant take the pain much longer. ugh i feel like a screw up. like(here's some poetry for you): there is wasted air in my useless lungs or i am a unfixable piece of crap that either needs to move on or give up ugh i feel really depressed right now I'm not going to go on...

b-day

I'm sorry i should have posted this sooner but i was pretty depressed
December 2nd would have been my moms, Lisa Marie Kelly's birthday she would have been 43 this will be the first Christmas without her ugh I'm sorry this is getting really hard without crying

HAPPY 43RD BIRTHDAY MOM
BRETT AND I LOVE AND MISS YOU!!!!!

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this is other cousin Jessica's blog its pretty interesting so check it out!!!!!!


http://myawsomepossumlife.blogspot.com/

try it

you need to go to this website:

its soo cool!!!

www.freerice.com

bretts poem

my brother Brett wrote this poem (and he is only 11)

I live my life with no knife
I would stay but I'm in pray
Its not safe in this place
Its not wrong till your wrong
I try not to cry it'll pass by
Just leave this place with no trace

hahaha this is great

THINGS TO DO IN AN ELEVATOR:
1. Make race car noises when anyone gets on or off.

2. Whistle the first seven notes of "It's a Small World" incessantly.

3. On a long ride, sway side to side at the natural frequency of the elevator.

4. Shave.

5. Crack open your briefcase or purse, peer inside and ask: "Got enough air in there?"

6. Offer name tags to everyone getting on the elevator. Wear yours upside-down.

7. Stand silent and motionless in the corner, facing the wall, without getting off.

8. When arriving at your floor, grunt and strain to yank the doors open, then act embarrassed when they open by themselves.

9. Greet everyone getting on the elevator with a warm handshake and ask them to call you Admiral.

10. On the highest floor, hold the door open and demand that it stay open until you hear the penny you dropped down the shaft go "plink" at the bottom.

11. Stare, grinning, at another passenger for a while, and then announce: "I've got new socks on!"

12. Meow occasionally.

13. Sing "Mary had a little lamb" while continually pushing buttons.

14. Stare at another passenger for a while, then announce "You're one of THEM!" and move to the far corner of the elevator.

15. Leave a box between the doors.

16. Ask each passenger getting on if you can push the button for them and push the wrong ones.

17. Wear a puppet on your hand and talk to other passengers "through" it.

18. Start a sing-along.

19. When the elevator is silent, look around and ask: "Is that your beeper?"

20. Play the harmonica.

21. Shadow box.

22. Say "Ding!" at each floor.

23. Lean against the button panel.

24. Say "I wonder what all these do" and push the red buttons.

25. Listen to the elevator walls with a stethoscope.

26. Draw a little square on the floor with chalk and announce to the other passengers that this is your "personal space."

27. Bring a chair along.

28. When there is only one other person in the elevator, tap them on the shoulder and then pretend it wasn't you.

29. Sit with a desk, pencil cup and a telephone in the elevator. When someone walks in, ask if they have an appointment.

30. Call the Psychic Hotline and ask them if they know which floor you're on.

31. While the doors are opening, hurriedly whisper, "Hide it. quick!" then whistle innocently.

32. When the doors close, announce, "Don't worry, they'll open again soon."

hahaha that was great!!!!

a little more about me

a little more about me is that: my favorite band in the whole wide world is Three Days Grace!!! Also my favorite color is blue!! i like mint and chocolate chip ice cream, and my favorite book series is the maximumride series by James Patterson. also my favorite movie is either how the Grinch stole Christmas or its a wonderful life. i really cant decide. that's some more about me and ill post another one when i can really think about more stuff.

family

i did a post on friend so I'm going to do a post on my family. I have a little brother, Brett, he is 11. my mom and dad were known as Lisa Marie Kelly and Kevin Wade Kelly. from my mom's side i have a grandma, Adel, an aunt named Stephanie and an aunt Teresa. from my aunt Stephanie i have a cousin named Jessica who is 12. from my aunt Teresa i have a cousin Teryn who is 16 and a cousin Chesnee who is 5. from my dad's side i have my grandma who I'm living with now, Karen. also i have two uncles, Bobby and Scott. they don't have any kids that are related to me by blood. That is my family who is related to me by blood, I'm also lucky enough to have another family. that family is the Huth family. there is Robin, Rusty and their kids Matthew, Adam, Johnathan, and Kathryn. Kathryn is the youngest and she is a senior in high school.
THIS IS MY FAMILY!!

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my cousin is starting a blog its:

www.teryn13baseballgod.blogspot.com
check it out!!!

friends

I'm a very lucky person, because despite of the things that have happened to me i have some good friends. their names are Miguel, Chris, Chuckles,Cheyenne,Justin ,and Rachel. Rachel actually helped me start my blog, so a shout out for Rachel: thank you! Speaking of Rachel she has her own blogs too. anyway you may be depressed or like me very lonely but if you find yourself some good friends you ll never be alone. trust me. if they are Good friends you could tell them anything and they would listen and actually care. believe me there is always someone out there that cares. just trust me on that.

www.sasukexxxsakura.blogspot.com

www.hear-the-un-heard.blogspot.com

www.listen-to-my-pain.blogspot.com

www.svetheplanet-hugatree.blogspot.com

www.relationship-clues.blogspot.com

These are Rachel's blogs please visit and comment!!!

my background

Hi I'm just fourteen and so far my short life on earth has been my short life in hell. The reason why? Well my life story is very complicated but this could easibly be your life story too. I was born three months premature and weighing only one pound and thirteen ounces. My mom and dad nursed me back to health. Three years later my mom and dad were again expecting. But unfortunately on January 8th 1997 my dad passed away. Leaving my mom pregnant and with a three year old daughter. In august my brother was born. Life was good for us . But my brother and I never knew our mom was still suffering from losing her husband. when I was in eighth grade my mom was deathfully sick and had to go to the hospital. She went to the hospital the beginning of May saying everythig was fine. I did worry because all I wanted her to do was see me graduate eighth grade.
she died 16 days before I graduated.

My brother and I are now living with my grandma and her husband who isnt related to us. We live in a retirement community now still trying to heal our still bleedind, gaping, infected wounds.

The reason why I started this blog is because I want other people who have the same story as us to not feel alone. also I want to keep my parents' memory alive even when they aren't.

PRAY FOR:
LISA MARIE AND KEVIN WADE KELLY