movie

one thing!! I can not wait for Percy Jackson and The Olypians The Lightning Theif to come to my little town!!! WOO! TWO DAYS TILL MY SWEET 16!! Oh and Happy Valentines Day!

meds

we talked... we've come to the decision that right now i'm very emotionally unstable. And that I need antidepressents and meds that stop me from stressing. It kind of upsetted me because I shouldn't have to take meds to be able to be normal, but I guess it'll help. Plus all i want to be is normal and I think that this will really help me...
-AuthorOfTomorrow

# 3 = drastic measures

1: Grandmothers and spouse's house.
problem: Spouse beat my brother and I
solution: moving to aunt's house
2: Aunt's house.
problem(this is going to be a long one): They take the money we get for birthdays, holidays, ect. they use it to buy beer and gamble. We've had fights (my aunt and I) I have a scar on my leg from one. This I knew though, what I didn't know has nearly killed me emotionally. My mother and father sapent their whole lives saving up just in case something like this ever happened. My aunt gets about 3,000 a month for watching my brother and I. We sometimes don't have any water or food. or sometimes clothes(speaking of which I'm a desperate need of a good pair of sneakers). She and her boyfriend have been using this money to gamble and buy beer and we're left with horrible living comditions. What really destroys me is that this is my mother and fathers money, They're taking my DEAD parents money and losing it!
solution: I'm taking my brother and I to our other grandmothers and other aunts house. That won't really wake them up, this will though. If the situation isn't good for us then it obviously isn't good enough for their seven year old daughter. We're going to give her a good home too.
So now we're back to my title number three. This will be our third try at a normal life. This will be our last try because I know with every fiber of my being that this will finally be our break.

I think I'm crazy

One moment I'm sparring with my brother and the next I'm yelling at him to fight me again and again, I fling my fist towards him. At this point I can't even see. All I see is red, red fury, or rage, I can't decide. The next moment I'm on the floor and I'm pounding my head on the floor seeing white flashes of light. I pounded it three times. I pounded my fists a couple times embracing the pain, loving it. Then I screamed, I was scared, ffrustrated, and I wanted to, needed to scream, my screams were high pitched at first then came from my heart ripping out of my throat faster than I could close my mouth. I couldn't understand what people were saying, I couldn't even here them. I think I'm going crazy, and this hasn't happened for a couple months now... I need an asylum.

Aww he does Care! I hope...

Before I get into my story I must explain to you my phone: It randomaly powers down usually when I need it most or when someone needs to tell me something important.
Okay story time:I was in my spanish classroom studying for an oral presentation(mine was so awesome, I did the difference between Ozzy Osboune's Crazy Train and Bullet For My Valentine's version. The assignment was to tell the diference between something new and old.) Anyway little did I know(actually I didn't know at al until afterward) Teryn, my beloved cousin was trying to get a hold of me. He tried and tried and tried this proved futile until I was on th bus ans found that my phone was experiencing it's problems. I turned it back on and said 'hey why do I have five missed calls and a voicemail?' I listened to the voicemail it was something like this 'ANSWER YOUR PHONE!' Teryn yelled in an enraged voice. Uh-Oh.
Just then my phone vibrtated Teryn:The Super Loser (lol my brother gave him the name and I've been too lazy to think of a new one... not that that doesn't fit..) 'Hello'
'Where are you!'
'On the bus'
'What! didn't you get my calls! I've been calling you since lunch!'
'Uh...' Yeah... apparently I was suppposed to walk to my Grandma's... Oops... I go by the old fashoined memo type thing.
Yeah so apparently from the 'Where the hell are you!' was a sign of love! lol.. well at least I hope so because I accidently got him grounded for the weekend...
Apparently(wow I say apparently a lot in this post) my aunt didn't know that we were going to go there. Yah and I accidently ratted him out by saying that he was going to go pick me up at the bus exchange place.Oops....
Anyway this is all that has happend lately besides I'm sure I broke a guiness world record...(how do you spell that?) Let me explain my diet for the past three days. lunch: pizza dinner: pizza
lunch:pizza dinner: pizza breakfast: pizza lunch:pizza and dinner:pizza! (My aunt and uncle got out a lot this week so this was basically all we had to eat cause we basically ran out of food again...)(i'll explain our food/water/money situation some other time but I'm in a good mood so I won't bring it up now)
-AuthorOfTomorrow

Music And Spanish

Hey! I have to do this thing for my Spanish class, it's a comparison project. I'm, being the music junkie that I am, comparing Classic Rock to Modern Rock. My Exhibits: Crazy Train by Ozzy Osbourne and Crazy Train remake by Bullet For My Valentine! I think I'll do pretty good. sINCE i am on here and have my Ipod I am going to name all my artists!
All That Remains
Apocalyptica Feat. Three Days Grace
Ill Nino
Staind
As I Lay Dying
In Flames
Static X
Atreyu
Killswitch Engage
Stemm
Avenged Sevenfold
Korn
Stone Sour
BeatFreakz
Lacuna Coil
Straight Line Stitch
Breaking Benjamin
Linkin Park
Switchfoot
Bullet For My Valentine
Marilyn Manson
Theory Of A Dead Man
Crossfade
MegaDeath
Thousand Foot Krutch
Da Rude
Mudvayne
Three Day's Grace
A Day To Remeber
My Chemical Romance
Three Doors Down
Demon Hunter
Nickleback
Tokio Hotel
Disturbed
Otep
Trapt
Drowing Pool
Papa Roach
3oh!3
Evanesence
Papercut Massacre
Everlife
Parkway Drive
Fall Out Boy
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Five Finger Death Punch
Rob Zombie
Framing Hanley
Saliva
The Fray
Seasons After
Frickin' A
Sevendust
God Forbid
Shadows Fall
Green Day
Shinedown
Hell Yeah
Sick Puppies
Hellogoodbye
Simple Plan
Hollywood Undead
Skillet
Iced Earth
Slipknot
Unknown Artist (lol I blame limewire)
-AuthorOfTomorrow

Just 15 more lazy, long, type awaiting days!

For those of you who do not know, the date todaqy is February 1st 2010. I am fifteen and have been fifteen for 350 days! That sure is a long time and I just have to wait 15 more days till I leave that number and move on to the next one! 16! Yay! well that's really all that I have been concerned about lately so... oh and here below is a banner I made for my novel! I made it for free at mybannermaker.com it's awesome!

-AuthorOf Tomorrow

Oh another thing I swear someone must have slipped pixie sticks in my sandwich or something I was soooooooooo sugar high at lunch today! :)