Driving and taxicabs!!!

hey guys yesterday was soooooo awesome!!!! teryn being 16 and all he decided to take the jeep and drive over huge hedges that were really close to our property and he went over them and well lets just say im really short yet my head hit the celling... and this is off topic but my leg is frickin twitchin and its driving me CRAZY!!.. my aunt ust said to cut my leg off cause i have another one... my family is the most sypathetic of them all... anyway it was really fun despite the fact that teryn scared the shit out of me he did really sharp turns really fast and went over some hills pretty fast so teryn has promised me that he will NEVER be a taxicab driver and if he does i wish his first passenger good luck... but it was really fun we played my two three days grace c.d.s and it was really funny we went over this gigatimundo hill and when we came down the song "get out alive" was playing.. and some how brett(my little brother) slapped hiself in the face im cracking up jut thinking about it.. and then my uncle matt took over and did doghnuts so for that teryn was my seat belt i didnt let go of him it was funny but seriously if my uncle or cousin become a taxicab driver may my prayers be with you...then teryn thought it would be halarious if he picked me up over his shoulder (that really hurts my stomach when he does that he has stone shoulders) and he picked me up and threw me up in the air and thank all gods out there that he caught me!!! hes getting a liking to picking me up and i really dont liked being picked up.. being dragged across the science building hall way isnt that much fun either... maybe if i have like 3 doughnts everyday ill gain like like a pound cause i like wiegh around 90-100 lbs and when people my age can bench that weight im like a tooth pick...

-pebbles

check it out

this is my friends cheyennes blog so as the tittle says: check it out!!!

http:cheyenne555031.blogspot.com

cheyenne is the most coolest and down to earth girl u will ever meet she kept her promise to keep in touch with me even after i moved away from AZ so pls follow and check out her blog..

pebbles

MUDVAYNE!!!

hey guys i just wanted to say that mudvayne is one of the best possible bands out there!!!!

yay go MUDVAYNE!!!!!!!!!!

pebbles

sorry

im for my emotional outbreak yesterday its so hard to keep every thing inside.... but onthe briteside my dog got groomed today!!! sorry...but today was also confusing.. this guy that i kinda liked but i dont think he was very interested in me and he kinda streaked down the hallway i happened to be in..... any way he talked to me this morning at the end of english:

he asked me "you know that kid that sits in the hall with you?"

"yah.. jordin."

"yah do you know why he ran away from me is he scared of me?"

"uh no he never brought it up and i never asked."

"oh... i heard he can draw pretty good."

"uh yah he could draw better than me by alot i mean if i could draw like him i would be too focused on drawing than caring about my grades."

"oh... he looks cool now huh?"

"yah he looks really cool i like it!!! a lot!! he looks have skater half scene i really like it"

"oh" then he completely stopped talking to me grr so i think i completely just blew it with him

GUYS ARE SOOOO CONFUSING!!!!!!!!!!

pebbles

alone

sometimes i feel so alone i know that my friends and family will say your never alone with us but how is that possible no one else feels the way i do i wnt people to be like me i just want one person just one person who will understand me more than i do myself and the only person that knew me was my mom... and know shes gone and two minus one is always one... i dont want to think so pessimest like but if i act like optimist it will only be a mask... i wrote this quote one day before school:
no one made a book on how to live your life
i wish they did
whoever "they" are
but then again who ever follows by the book?
also:
what is a mask?
is it the mask of the person i want to be
or is it the person who i despise most?
WHO REALLY KNOWS?

why is there always a "then" and a "now"?
will there ever be an "after"?

why must everything have a darkside?

i also wrote a poem in haiku form:
the raw emotions
they tear me from the inside
i can barely breath

pebbles

anger

i feel as if i will only feel beter till i hit and punch something or hurt myself but i promised to many people that i wouldnt but i never promised not to hurt others im the tiniest person on the earth but would love to fight and hit and kick as if my life depended on it also i think i would love to get hit also... i dont know why im so mad i have it pretty good...now... but i feel the anger and rage coiled up so tight and hot it feels like its burning me from the inside... im just so mad and when people hit me i cant ot hit back i feel as if im losing my self and i just got into caring about my grades... when im with my friends im not like this im happy but any other time i just get soooo mad i want to scream and hit and i KNOW even when i let out all the anger i felt at a certain moment it will always come back..i dont know what to do with my self when i listen to my type of music i get angrier because it reminds me of what i am and what im becoming... how am i ever going to get past this i know that everyone dies someday and that my day is coming... this and mt confusing ager is almost always what i can think about and i dont want to do therapy again i know i need it but i cant do that because that will just remind me of what a complete nutcase i am.... i dont want to deal with it any more but i dont know how not to
pebbles

cheetos!!!! and other stuff

hey guy today was soo cool lunch is obviously the best part!!!! first jordan looked all sceneish today i liked it he had these awesome glasses,wristband and studded braclet plus his usual skater clothes it was soooo awesome!!! and we got into really weird conversations about vodka and pocky and marshmallows and pastacios lol and we tried to rip a cheeto bag in half and it didnt work.. we tried one person on each side pulling so i got dragged around a lot it didnt rip but it made a cheeto bag bracelet it was funny i lost like 6 pouds laughing it was one of those rare days where i was actually happy and laughing so to me it was a good day... i guess my friends are likeable alot even if they arent lik me.... oh and in other newsmy friend is going to start a blog her name is pretzel she doesnt want pple to know her name and my creative writting class wants to start a blog!!!! so im gonna tell mr. nelsen to get a blog on blogger cause its awesome.... uea thats all that really happened today so it was actually a pretty good day for but i do have to baby sit my little brother and sister (my cousin is like my sister) cause my aunt and uncle are going ouut so its cereal for dinner!!! i can cook butim very lazy when it comes to cooking for other pple and when im not really hungry... yup that is how my day was and is going okay guys i might post later if im bored or not all depends on the nights mood... bye!!
-pebbles