Why doesn't he understand that I am so weak? That I need someone to love to keep my heart open. Why has he forgotten what it's like to be loved? Why does he make me want to cry and scream and hurt? Now I'm beginning to lose my only tie to being a normal kid, and losing the fragile gate that's trying so deperately hard to keep my heart open. I can't keep losing people! Two are already gone and I can't ever get them back. And now the only one I have left is changing to someone completley unrecognizable. Am I going to be stuck lost in the vortex of grief and depression forever? For the first time since my mothers' death I am scared. Completely and utterly scared. And there is nothing I can do to stop it, there is nothing I can do to change him, my light is gone.
What do I do now?