depression

somethings been really bugging me,writing about my moms birthday brought it up. this guy at school i wont mention his name or my school i don't need my blog readers to start a riot. anyway he said when i was feeling pretty depressed about my stupid life: no dad now no mom have to live in a retirement community having the cps (child protective services)check on us from time to time(pretty pathetic life if you ask me) well this guy just said "get over it" that really stung i mean how can i get over the death of a loved one especially since that loved one raised my brother and i alone. on the other hand should i be over it by now? i mean my mom died in may 2008 its almost been 6 months that should be long enough right? or am i just weak, a weak person that cant get over things? i don't know if i should be giving myself time or i should say"get over it you crybaby" i really don't know part of doesn't ever want to let go then the other part cant take the pain much longer. ugh i feel like a screw up. like(here's some poetry for you): there is wasted air in my useless lungs or i am a unfixable piece of crap that either needs to move on or give up ugh i feel really depressed right now I'm not going to go on...